you don't have a chronic disease,
you are just putting the wrong stuff into your body.
The only thing chronic about disease is that we contribute to it willingly by continuing to abuse ourselves. Once we stop doing that, the body heals. It is essential to first recognize what we are doing to cause the disease. Most doctors won't tell you that, they will tell you that you have a chronic disease and the only thing that can help you is medication. They are taught to say that, and we are taught to believe it.

You create your own reality. That is the straight truth.
if you see the last few years as the worst ever, then you will miss out on the learning experience you could have grown from. If you run from pain, you will never see the end of it. If you validate yourself through your relationships with women, you will never know yourself. If you decide that you truly want to be happy, then you will make major changes in the way you view your life and the world around you.

If you think the last few years have been bad, you might want to check out before your Pluto transit hits.
If, on the other hand, you decide that you're ready to take responsibility for the pain you have caused yourself and make the necessary changes, the next few years will be the most liberating and transformative of your entire life. You choose: become a better you, or suffer and keep blaming it on everyone else.

Respectfully,
m7

Emad.....keep in mind you probably finished up your saturn return a year ago or so...depending on where it is in your chart. That is a notorious transit for knocking people flat on their asses.

For me my saturn return felt like 5 years long and it is just ending because it returned to my 11th house, then transited the 12th (kicking up the boogyman) and will finally be off my first house this summer.....tough transits....so keep in mind that's part of where you have been. But maybe look at what happened...oftentimes saturn transits are especially difficult because you have not been living your life according to what is truly right for you. I have a GF whose saturn return has been the greatest time of her life...challenging (she is in the army now) but good (met a great guy she will prob marry who loves her to death).

So now you are left with the pieces of what has been shattered...but whatever was broken/changed was not good for the next step in your evolution. Look at where you are and you have the power now to start over. And yes pluto is coming...for all of us cappy's ..scary but we should be so excited...pluto's transit takes over 200 years to go around the zodiac...how lucky are we that we will be able to live through a sun-pluto conjunction. As humans we always have the power to transform but with pluto in our sign...we get an extra push to stretch.

I don't think that it is true that sag's and cap's are impossible. I have dated two in the past two years, and one... though it ended abruptley... (at my doing) The other is my fiance, and we are like two peas in a pod. True we have some distinct differences in our personalities, we seem to make up for each others downfalls. It is very much a case by case situation, but don't be automaticly deterred due to sun signs. now, sometimes, it can be a safe bet what the outcome will be. (see cap and cancer...*shudder*) But sag can be very compatible. It also depends greatly on where you both are in your sun signs. Early, mid or late can have a vast effect on how you two get along. One of my best girlfriends is also a sag. She was a late sag, almost cap, and I am mid to late cap. We get along great and have alot in common. being in a relationship with a sag is different, but only if you can't see the diffrences before they become a big confusing hole in your lives. Learn your partners habits and traits. Then you can see how well you truly mesh, as in any relationship, with any sign. I think cappy on cappy would drive me nuts. (though the sex is hot!) ;) So, embrace the difference and use their spontanious nature to inspire instead of aggrivate you. :) Best of luck.

You're not alone at all. I'm going through a horribly emotionally draining period in my life. But to be honest, it's half my own fault and I know what to do to put it right. But love makes things complicated, maybe more so than they need to be. I'm searching for something I wont be able to have with the person I'm currently pining over. He happens to be a scorpio. Stupid choice on my part. Why can't I find a good, loyal, caring cappy like myself to settle down with? So yea, I know how bad it sucks for us.